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I have to put this in writing somehow so I stick to it. feels good honestly | self-harm | i have to put this in writing somehow so i stick to it. feels good honestly |
I've made my peace with the fact that I'm going to kill myself... One day. My head is a train wreck, my life skills are nonexistent, I have zero reliable friends, I'm disconnected from my family, I'm basically alone 24/7 with my toxic thoughts... But despite all of that there's a degree of comfort in knowing that I can... | self-harm | i've made my peace with the fact that i'm going to kill myself.. one day. my head is a train wreck, my life skills are nonexistent, i have zero reliable friends, i'm disconnected from my family, i'm basically alone 24/7 with my toxic thoughts.. but despite all of that there's a degree of comfort in knowing that i can g... |
I really want help now i just cant so this anymore alone i feel hopeless | self-harm | i really want help now i just cant so this anymore alone i feel hopeless |
I can't think of any reason to stay. I have no sense of stability in any area of life and I'm fucking terrified. Narcissistic parents that didn't want me. No friends. I've experienced how wonderful life can be, just for marvelling at existence itself and appreciating its divinity - appreciating my senses etc. It's not ... | self-harm | i can't think of any reason to stay. i have no sense of stability in any area of life and i'm fucking terrified. narcissistic parents that didn't want me. no friends. i've experienced how wonderful life can be, just for marvelling at existence itself and appreciating its divinity - appreciating my senses etc. it's not ... |
Hi, it's my first post here, I'm new in this community. So... I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for at least 8 years now. Today is my 25th birthday. Things have been extremely bad lately. I lost my job that I adored and I feel useless because of unemployment, I live in a country where unemployment rates are e... | self-harm | hi, it's my first post here, i'm new in this community. so.. i've been struggling with suicidal thoughts for at least 8 years now. today is my 25th birthday. things have been extremely bad lately. i lost my job that i adored and i feel useless because of unemployment, i live in a country where unemployment rates are ex... |
What the fuck is even the point when no one gives a shit about me? Their life makes no difference if I’m here or not. I want the pain to stop so badly I just want to die. | self-harm | what the fuck is even the point when no one gives a shit about me? their life makes no difference if i'm here or not. i want the pain to stop so badly i just want to die. |
I assume the person cutting is a girl but i’m not sure. I was scrolling through random hashtags about adhd because i have it. Then in a post i clicked a self harming hashtag. Then I saw her profile with 2 or 3 posts of her cutting herself. Very new, and its been 6 days since she’s first made the profile.
First attempt... | self-harm | i assume the person cutting is a girl but i'm not sure. i was scrolling through random hashtags about adhd because i have it. then in a post i clicked a self harming hashtag. then i saw her profile with 2 or 3 posts of her cutting herself. very new, and its been 6 days since she's first made the profile. first attempt ... |
Everything has been a mess. I cannot keep doing this anymore. Even after 3 years of self-healing, and therapy, I cannot find peace in anything I do. Everything is tainted with bullshit. I just wanna kill myself. But I cannot find the courage to. I just need the courage to. If someone here could give me that push, that ... | self-harm | everything has been a mess. i cannot keep doing this anymore. even after 3 years of self-healing, and therapy, i cannot find peace in anything i do. everything is tainted with bullshit. i just wanna kill myself. but i cannot find the courage to. i just need the courage to. if someone here could give me that push, that ... |
Like many of you, I am single, live alone, I have almost no social life. Social isolation is contributing to the rapid deterioration of my mental health.
I have little to no support system, and I am struggling with sobriety. I can hold it together while sober, but if I end up drinking, I will kill myself.
I still c... | self-harm | like many of you, i am single, live alone, i have almost no social life. social isolation is contributing to the rapid deterioration of my mental health. i have little to no support system, and i am struggling with sobriety. i can hold it together while sober, but if i end up drinking, i will kill myself. i still care ... |
I can’t. Please. Why does God keep doing this to me. Why does it always have to end this way. I tried my hardest in this relationship and now I’m gonna be in the same place I was last year. Maybe I’m not meant to live. I think that’s how I’m supposed to go. I thought I was getting better with therapy but it’s all unrav... | self-harm | i can't. please. why does god keep doing this to me. why does it always have to end this way. i tried my hardest in this relationship and now i'm gonna be in the same place i was last year. maybe i'm not meant to live. i think that's how i'm supposed to go. i thought i was getting better with therapy but it's all unrav... |
29F. Single for years because I can’t manage relationships. Lonely. Been depressed my whole adult life. Have bipolar and tend to fuck up my life in the brief periods of mania - scars, risky sex, and now a broken heel.
Non stop health problems. Endometriosis, a gut parasite leading to severe abdominal bloating non stop... | self-harm | 29f. single for years because i can't manage relationships. lonely. been depressed my whole adult life. have bipolar and tend to fuck up my life in the brief periods of mania - scars, risky sex, and now a broken heel. non stop health problems. endometriosis, a gut parasite leading to severe abdominal bloating non stop ... |
Hi, I'm looking for advice or encouragement to kill my self. I'm really depressed and having a real bad time living since 2010.
I want to hang my self, my plan is to go far into a forest and just do it. My plan is setup but I need the courage just to go and do it.
What do you think? Do I need alcohol to fuel the suic... | self-harm | hi, i'm looking for advice or encouragement to kill my self. i'm really depressed and having a real bad time living since 2010. i want to hang my self, my plan is to go far into a forest and just do it. my plan is setup but i need the courage just to go and do it. what do you think? do i need alcohol to fuel the suicid... |
I took 12g of ketipinor 20min ago.
All i want say is sorry to everyone but i couldnt continue live like this.
Also im sorry to my therapist who called last week. I purposefully didnt tell you the truth. Nothing you could have done. | self-harm | i took 12g of ketipinor 20min ago. all i want say is sorry to everyone but i couldnt continue live like this. also im sorry to my therapist who called last week. i purposefully didnt tell you the truth. nothing you could have done. |
This is my 5th or 6th bout of extreme depression, and every new one is harder than the one before. Last time, I tried to kill myself a few times and nothing worked, but I've gotten better at doing the drug calculations and I'm pretty sure they'll work if I try again. The only reason I can't right now, is because I have... | self-harm | this is my 5th or 6th bout of extreme depression, and every new one is harder than the one before. last time, i tried to kill myself a few times and nothing worked, but i've gotten better at doing the drug calculations and i'm pretty sure they'll work if i try again. the only reason i can't right now, is because i have... |
can't take it anymore. nobody will miss me but i wrote a note. just about my entire life when 911 finds my body. im done with this world, cana't take it anymore | self-harm | can't take it anymore. nobody will miss me but i wrote a note. just about my entire life when 911 finds my body. im done with this world, cana't take it anymore |
fuck me i was in middle of this shit out then i switched apps now i have to type it again fuck.
Why am i such a lazy peice of shit? every time i try to focus on my problems i forget them and watch some youtube cuz i gave adhd idk and idgaf.. wowww now im making excuses for me being a lazy waste of human life. im such ... | self-harm | fuck me i was in middle of this shit out then i switched apps now i have to type it again fuck. why am i such a lazy peice of shit? every time i try to focus on my problems i forget them and watch some youtube cuz i gave adhd idk and idgaf.. woww now im making excuses for me being a lazy waste of human life. im such a ... |
I fucked up and i am bad at life and wish someone would make whats happening to me a situation that will just dissapear.I was depressed already and dont know how I can deal with this now.It feels like i dont have any excape and im seriously thinking of what to do and if this is the end. | self-harm | i fucked up and i am bad at life and wish someone would make whats happening to me a situation that will just dissapear.i was depressed already and dont know how i can deal with this now.it feels like i dont have any excape and im seriously thinking of what to do and if this is the end. |
Time to make the outside fit the inside?? | self-harm | time to make the outside fit the inside?? |
I’ve accepted that I’ll never have any close relationships outside my family and I’ve more or less made peace with that but sometimes the loneliness just hurts so fucking much
All the friends I have are online and while I love them a lot I just wish I had someone physically in front of me who could hold me and tell me ... | self-harm | i've accepted that i'll never have any close relationships outside my family and i've more or less made peace with that but sometimes the loneliness just hurts so fucking much all the friends i have are online and while i love them a lot i just wish i had someone physically in front of me who could hold me and tell me ... |
I'm too depressed to write a long suicide note.
I missed out on my teen years I never been asked out to prom nor have I been to any HS parties. (I'm going into my senior year this august) i'm almost an adult and haven't accomplished anything whatsoever.
I'm also fucking terrible at driving, I can't parallel park fo... | self-harm | i'm too depressed to write a long suicide note. i missed out on my teen years i never been asked out to prom nor have i been to any hs parties. (i'm going into my senior year this august) i'm almost an adult and haven't accomplished anything whatsoever. i'm also fucking terrible at driving, i can't parallel park for th... |
It's been four years since we split up. I think about you every day and every hour. There are days in which not a minute goes by without thinking about you. At first, I was so angry that it felt as if the world was to fall apart. Then it felt like you died in front of my eyes. I often want to tell you how my day was, b... | self-harm | it's been four years since we split up. i think about you every day and every hour. there are days in which not a minute goes by without thinking about you. at first, i was so angry that it felt as if the world was to fall apart. then it felt like you died in front of my eyes. i often want to tell you how my day was, b... |
I want to start off by saying that I love my sister and I have no animosity towards her, but her life is so perfect. She got married to a wonderful man, has a gorgeous house and a baby on the way. I've been putting on showers and events for her for the last four years and even thought I'm happy for her I cant help but... | self-harm | i want to start off by saying that i love my sister and i have no animosity towards her, but her life is so perfect. she got married to a wonderful man, has a gorgeous house and a baby on the way. i've been putting on showers and events for her for the last four years and even thought i'm happy for her i cant help but ... |
I’ve had the tools to do everything I needed to do in life, (that I didn’t because I was too weak) available to me. Now that I’m faced with the exact resources I need to commit suicide, I’m too weak to do even that. I’m stuck in a place worse than death where I’m too hopeless to live, and too cowardly to die. My story ... | self-harm | i've had the tools to do everything i needed to do in life, (that i didn't because i was too weak) available to me. now that i'm faced with the exact resources i need to commit suicide, i'm too weak to do even that. i'm stuck in a place worse than death where i'm too hopeless to live, and too cowardly to die. my story ... |
I'm stuck in my parents' house because of quarantine, and I just realize that there's a rope in their store room and I can hang myself up anytime, especially at night because they are all asleep. I've been itching to do it since forever but I have no access to anything back then. | self-harm | i'm stuck in my parents' house because of quarantine, and i just realize that there's a rope in their store room and i can hang myself up anytime, especially at night because they are all asleep. i've been itching to do it since forever but i have no access to anything back then. |
Realizing that I no longer really care how much my death would fuck people up. I'm just tired of living. Tired of holding up my end of the bargain and being met with nothing in return. This world is shit. Why should I keep living to make other people happy. I'm certainly not living to make myself happy. As far as I'm c... | self-harm | realizing that i no longer really care how much my death would fuck people up. i'm just tired of living. tired of holding up my end of the bargain and being met with nothing in return. this world is shit. why should i keep living to make other people happy. i'm certainly not living to make myself happy. as far as i'm c... |
life just keeps throwing bullshit after bullshit at me and i’m so done trying to keep up. no one cares. i can’t really explain it but even around family 24/7 i feel so alone. no one really knows me, even though i’ve tried so much. everyone either leaves or doesn’t care enough. i’m done seeking help, nobody cares until ... | self-harm | life just keeps throwing bullshit after bullshit at me and i'm so done trying to keep up. no one cares. i can't really explain it but even around family 24/7 i feel so alone. no one really knows me, even though i've tried so much. everyone either leaves or doesn't care enough. i'm done seeking help, nobody cares until ... |
I can't take it anymore. This entire year has been a shitshow. My business partner fucked me over before COVID was relevant, the pandemic has canceled my senior year of High School, and now I'm falling for a co-worker who I just know that I have no chance with (hell, I think she already rejected me by rejecting my fol... | self-harm | i can't take it anymore. this entire year has been a shitshow. my business partner fucked me over before covid was relevant, the pandemic has canceled my senior year of high school, and now i'm falling for a co-worker who i just know that i have no chance with (hell, i think she already rejected me by rejecting my foll... |
I am a Christian k cool we will start with that.
I was abused by my father when I was 9 years old and verbally abused until 17
My father finally left when I was 17 making my mom a very very dedicated psycho catholic
The conflict that I’ve had with her because of that means I have no family relationships anymore
... | self-harm | i am a christian k cool we will start with that. i was abused by my father when i was 9 years old and verbally abused until 17 my father finally left when i was 17 making my mom a very very dedicated psycho catholic the conflict that i've had with her because of that means i have no family relationships anymore - furth... |
i have one friend and he is in the same mind set as me. he just got out of a super toxic relationship with my ex-best friend and now ive been branded as the school slut even though im only 13. every single one of the girls in my small school of about 70 people hate me and think i stole this girls BF (my friend) and all... | self-harm | i have one friend and he is in the same mind set as me. he just got out of a super toxic relationship with my ex-best friend and now ive been branded as the school slut even though im only 13. every single one of the girls in my small school of about 70 people hate me and think i stole this girls bf (my friend) and all... |
18 male and recently broke up with my girlfriend, we were dating for almost 2 years. Too some it might seem crazy how I can feel this way, but I really dont know what to do anymore.
It was going well before a couple of days,when she said she was lying about loving me like I did her. She said that she can't be with som... | self-harm | 18 male and recently broke up with my girlfriend, we were dating for almost 2 years. too some it might seem crazy how i can feel this way, but i really dont know what to do anymore. it was going well before a couple of days,when she said she was lying about loving me like i did her. she said that she can't be with some... |
ive written a really nice suicide note and now i want to do it more. its very pretty sounding, and has quotes and things. im lowkey proud of it. ill probably be gone soon so my parents can read it and finally realize how much pain im in. | self-harm | ive written a really nice suicide note and now i want to do it more. its very pretty sounding, and has quotes and things. im lowkey proud of it. ill probably be gone soon so my parents can read it and finally realize how much pain im in. |
Give me a reason, I don’t care if it’s selfish of me and others suffer, I don’t want to live at all. Give me a reason to stay alive | self-harm | give me a reason, i don't care if it's selfish of me and others suffer, i don't want to live at all. give me a reason to stay alive |
I don’t enjoy video games anymore.
I don’t enjoy movies and netflix anymore
I don’t enjoy anime anymore
I don’t enjoy le funny quirky memes anymore
I don’t enjoy junk food anymore
I don’t enjoy porn anymore
I don’t enjoy this website anymore
I want to be fulfilled but I’m afraid I’ll never be. All I do is rot a... | self-harm | i don't enjoy video games anymore. i don't enjoy movies and netflix anymore i don't enjoy anime anymore i don't enjoy le funny quirky memes anymore i don't enjoy junk food anymore i don't enjoy porn anymore i don't enjoy this website anymore i want to be fulfilled but i'm afraid i'll never be. all i do is rot away in m... |
Have you ever noticed it? Like something is pressing your lungs, so they can't expand. And when you are trying to do a deep breath, you instantly exhale it back. Like your body intentionally tries to prevent you from breathing. But why it still feels that you need to breathe? Why you can't just stop, if you clearly wan... | self-harm | have you ever noticed it? like something is pressing your lungs, so they can't expand. and when you are trying to do a deep breath, you instantly exhale it back. like your body intentionally tries to prevent you from breathing. but why it still feels that you need to breathe? why you can't just stop, if you clearly wan... |
I’m coming to Reddit as I don’t know who else to talk to.
Without going into too much detail, I forced a sexual act on my partner while she was asleep and drunk. I didn’t see it that way at the time, but the cold sober truth has hit me like a bullet - I raped the person I love most in this world.
She has experienced... | self-harm | i'm coming to reddit as i don't know who else to talk to. without going into too much detail, i forced a sexual act on my partner while she was asleep and drunk. i didn't see it that way at the time, but the cold sober truth has hit me like a bullet - i raped the person i love most in this world. she has experienced ra... |
I have a loving family and good friends. In the past, I told them about my suicidal and depressive thoughts and for the most part, they have been very supportive. I have drastically improved my grades in school and I am about to graduate community college and transfer to a 4 year school. However, the desire to kill my ... | self-harm | i have a loving family and good friends. in the past, i told them about my suicidal and depressive thoughts and for the most part, they have been very supportive. i have drastically improved my grades in school and i am about to graduate community college and transfer to a 4 year school. however, the desire to kill my ... |
I wish I was joking | self-harm | i wish i was joking |
I want to kill myself because everything seems to go wrong. Everyone has an easier life than me, and everywhere I go, I'm being treated like garbage by other women. There is no job that I want to do, which would bring me joy. I just want to die because then, I wouldn't have to worry about this.
I live alone with my m... | self-harm | i want to kill myself because everything seems to go wrong. everyone has an easier life than me, and everywhere i go, i'm being treated like garbage by other women. there is no job that i want to do, which would bring me joy. i just want to die because then, i wouldn't have to worry about this. i live alone with my mot... |
I'm turning 22 next week - i'm spending July 4th alone today and I've cried a lot today. My suicidal thoughts started when I was 12, and I get to the point sometimes now where I'm like, really? They're still happening? I get really frustrated with myself because I try to do everything "right" and the "healthy way". I t... | self-harm | i'm turning 22 next week - i'm spending july 4th alone today and i've cried a lot today. my suicidal thoughts started when i was 12, and i get to the point sometimes now where i'm like, really? they're still happening? i get really frustrated with myself because i try to do everything "right" and the "healthy way". i t... |
It's the logical option. I'd rather be dead than spend 90% of my day daydreaming or sleeping. Everything i want to achieve seems impossible, and even if it id possible, it won't matter anyway. Atleast death is actually something interesting. Don't give me any advice. I don't want to hear it. I'm just saying whats on my... | self-harm | it's the logical option. i'd rather be dead than spend 90% of my day daydreaming or sleeping. everything i want to achieve seems impossible, and even if it id possible, it won't matter anyway. atleast death is actually something interesting. don't give me any advice. i don't want to hear it. i'm just saying whats on my... |
i'm useless and a waste of space but at least i finally got the courage to off myself | self-harm | i'm useless and a waste of space but at least i finally got the courage to off myself |
I completely lost it today, like I'm struggling mentally and I can't stop crying. I pleaded with them to just give me 1 day because I'm exhausted and I need a break. They don't care so I'm done | self-harm | i completely lost it today, like i'm struggling mentally and i can't stop crying. i pleaded with them to just give me 1 day because i'm exhausted and i need a break. they don't care so i'm done |
Listen, I've tried. Very hard. For years.
It doesn't get better. If anything it gets worse and worse.
The universe has decided to screw me over yet again.
My sister is dead, my beloved little sister, the one that came to me every time she had problems. The one that I had to go visit in the hospital every few months e... | self-harm | listen, i've tried. very hard. for years. it doesn't get better. if anything it gets worse and worse. the universe has decided to screw me over yet again. my sister is dead, my beloved little sister, the one that came to me every time she had problems. the one that i had to go visit in the hospital every few months eve... |
It has been a lifetime of mental illness. Treatment resistant. Meds, therapy, the lot. Add autism, add being trans, add being poor and jobless. and not having the language to talk about what I’m going through, I cannot keep going. I have spent months with only my husband’s happiness keeping me here. I can’t continue to... | self-harm | it has been a lifetime of mental illness. treatment resistant. meds, therapy, the lot. add autism, add being trans, add being poor and jobless. and not having the language to talk about what i'm going through, i cannot keep going. i have spent months with only my husband's happiness keeping me here. i can't continue to... |
i want to bash my head | self-harm | i want to bash my head |
I am going to drop out of university. Failed first semester, terrified me, was behind and then did nothing in the 2nd because I was scared of failure, had no interest in the course and due to corona online classes gave me even less motivation. I know it is all my fault. I am not going to even attempt the exams. The fi... | self-harm | i am going to drop out of university. failed first semester, terrified me, was behind and then did nothing in the 2nd because i was scared of failure, had no interest in the course and due to corona online classes gave me even less motivation. i know it is all my fault. i am not going to even attempt the exams. the fir... |
I’m finally accepting that the best thing for me to do is just die. I won’t have to deal with anything anymore and everyone can just forget I ever excited and it’s a win win for everybody. | self-harm | i'm finally accepting that the best thing for me to do is just die. i won't have to deal with anything anymore and everyone can just forget i ever excited and it's a win win for everybody. |
I’ve been fighting a war that I can’t win. Depression, suicide attempts, alcoholism, and compulsive gambling. I took a really hard look in the mirror and realized my time here is coming in an end. No one can talk me out of it this time. My first attempt was a little over two years ago (thanks to my partner at the time ... | self-harm | i've been fighting a war that i can't win. depression, suicide attempts, alcoholism, and compulsive gambling. i took a really hard look in the mirror and realized my time here is coming in an end. no one can talk me out of it this time. my first attempt was a little over two years ago (thanks to my partner at the time ... |
I attempted suicide and now stuck on bed cause my leg fractured. I didnt feel grateful surviving it cause the after math is painful.
Can someone help me please? | self-harm | i attempted suicide and now stuck on bed cause my leg fractured. i didnt feel grateful surviving it cause the after math is painful. can someone help me please? |
HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HOW THE FUCK DID I END UP HERE AND HOW DO I GET OUT OF THIS | self-harm | help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me how the fuck did i end up here and how do i get out of this |
I’m going to be home alone today, and part of me - actually most of me - knows that it’s a terrible idea because I have many methods of ending myself in this house, and I’m the only one who knows that. But I try to think of the things I have that can stop me from doing it. Then I remember that the things I have are so ... | self-harm | i'm going to be home alone today, and part of me - actually most of me - knows that it's a terrible idea because i have many methods of ending myself in this house, and i'm the only one who knows that. but i try to think of the things i have that can stop me from doing it. then i remember that the things i have are so ... |
I decided im not gonna kill myself. but im gonna feel all this pain in life so i'm more prepared for when i burn in hell. Thats what life is. hell. Lmao why tf was I religious, thats the dumbest thing i've done in my whole life. What a joke life. I so badly want to kill myself though. All the damn time i'm wanting to j... | self-harm | i decided im not gonna kill myself. but im gonna feel all this pain in life so i'm more prepared for when i burn in hell. thats what life is. hell. lmao why tf was i religious, thats the dumbest thing i've done in my whole life. what a joke life. i so badly want to kill myself though. all the damn time i'm wanting to j... |
This is my second post on this sub. I keep trying to be a better boyfriend but even though my girlfriend tells me I am a great boyfriend I feel like a waste of space. I have my next therapy appointment in 4 weeks but I don’t know how I’m gonna make it that long. I hate everything about myself. So if I can’t even love m... | self-harm | this is my second post on this sub. i keep trying to be a better boyfriend but even though my girlfriend tells me i am a great boyfriend i feel like a waste of space. i have my next therapy appointment in 4 weeks but i don't know how i'm gonna make it that long. i hate everything about myself. so if i can't even love m... |
paramedics are gonna have a laugh at that when they find my dead body next week | self-harm | paramedics are gonna have a laugh at that when they find my dead body next week |
Please can someone have some sort of answer for me. I have tried again and again to end my life but for some reason I'm so fucking bad at it. I don't understand why it won't work. Is it my unconscious self stopping myself because me consciously right now wants to be dead? I have genuinely tried. Genuinely. Like really ... | self-harm | please can someone have some sort of answer for me. i have tried again and again to end my life but for some reason i'm so fucking bad at it. i don't understand why it won't work. is it my unconscious self stopping myself because me consciously right now wants to be dead? i have genuinely tried. genuinely. like really ... |
Iv been depressed for many years on and off. Past few months it wont leave, i have lost my partner in the most brutal way, lost my family my kids and everything i have. I am a shell of my former self.
I have come to the realisation that i will never be happy. I will never have the family and the love i have always cr... | self-harm | iv been depressed for many years on and off. past few months it wont leave, i have lost my partner in the most brutal way, lost my family my kids and everything i have. i am a shell of my former self. i have come to the realisation that i will never be happy. i will never have the family and the love i have always crav... |
My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and a half, and just recently i started understanding the suicidal tendencies that can take over him. This is something new to me as i’ve never dealt with anything like this before. He explained to me that this runs in his families mental health, and it worries me that h... | self-harm | my boyfriend and i have been together for a year and a half, and just recently i started understanding the suicidal tendencies that can take over him. this is something new to me as i've never dealt with anything like this before. he explained to me that this runs in his families mental health, and it worries me that h... |
I'm going to kill myself in less than an hour. I used to cry my eyes out at my misery. But now I feel nothing, because I know I'm going to die. It's almost like a sense of relief. I used to be so scared of upsetting my parents, but I don't even care anymore. Part of me feels like I should be remorseful, but there's not... | self-harm | i'm going to kill myself in less than an hour. i used to cry my eyes out at my misery. but now i feel nothing, because i know i'm going to die. it's almost like a sense of relief. i used to be so scared of upsetting my parents, but i don't even care anymore. part of me feels like i should be remorseful, but there's not... |
I just don't think I can do this anymore. I'm sorry I've failed everyone. I just can't keep fighting anymore. I've lost. I'm such a horrible, horrible person. I just wanna end it so nobody will have to be cursed with my presence any longer.
No matter what I do, I'll always be at death's door. I don't think I'll ever c... | self-harm | i just don't think i can do this anymore. i'm sorry i've failed everyone. i just can't keep fighting anymore. i've lost. i'm such a horrible, horrible person. i just wanna end it so nobody will have to be cursed with my presence any longer. no matter what i do, i'll always be at death's door. i don't think i'll ever ch... |
Mental health is not a battle to be won, it's a journey to continue walking. Be kind to your mind and let yourself feel. [Your feelings are always valid](https://preview.redd.it/b0vm2wvxgt851.gif?format=mp4&s=719d61023dd69c93d6cf6758b55ba2b72032c4c8), regardless of what other people think. Don't feel sorry for being t... | self-harm | mental health is not a battle to be won, it's a journey to continue walking. be kind to your mind and let yourself feel. [your feelings are always valid]( regardless of what other people think. don't feel sorry for being too vulnerable, too broken, too anything. **the last thing we need in the midst of a crisis is the ... |
I'm tired of the constant pain of feeling insecure about myself, my constant self doubt, about my appearance im tired of being ugly and not being attractive enough to date girls, (especially the ones I have major crushes I know are out of my league) and having no love or affection ever in my life from a has shot my sel... | self-harm | i'm tired of the constant pain of feeling insecure about myself, my constant self doubt, about my appearance im tired of being ugly and not being attractive enough to date girls, (especially the ones i have major crushes i know are out of my league) and having no love or affection ever in my life from a has shot my sel... |
I didn't think that was possible. I already had a suicide plan and was determined to go through with it. The last days of my life had a certain freedom to it, I wanted to live my life with my friend and savor these last moments. My birthday is coming up in a few days, turning 19. And yet, I can't see myself enjoying my... | self-harm | i didn't think that was possible. i already had a suicide plan and was determined to go through with it. the last days of my life had a certain freedom to it, i wanted to live my life with my friend and savor these last moments. my birthday is coming up in a few days, turning 19. and yet, i can't see myself enjoying my... |
last night was horrible. i couldnt sleep. the only thing i thought about was suicide and even then i was very happy, just thinking about it. happier than normal people and i got this tingly sensation in my stomach. im fucking confused what is wrong with me??
i dont think ill be here much longer at this rate | self-harm | last night was horrible. i couldnt sleep. the only thing i thought about was suicide and even then i was very happy, just thinking about it. happier than normal people and i got this tingly sensation in my stomach. im fucking confused what is wrong with me?? i dont think ill be here much longer at this rate |
Alright, so one of my friends (still a minor) has told me about his depression and anxiety and sometimes he gets huge mental breakdowns/panic attacks where he starts venting. For now, all I have done is regularly talked to him about his depression and tried to calm him down during these breakdowns.
He has also told me... | self-harm | alright, so one of my friends (still a minor) has told me about his depression and anxiety and sometimes he gets huge mental breakdowns/panic attacks where he starts venting. for now, all i have done is regularly talked to him about his depression and tried to calm him down during these breakdowns. he has also told me ... |
So much so that I have an unbelievable urge to mutilate myself bit by bit, especially my genitalia because I am repulsed by the idea of sexual reproduction.
I don’t like humans. I don’t give a flying fuck how edgy that sounds because it’s genuinely eating me up.
I don’t know if I want to die, free myself of this huma... | self-harm | so much so that i have an unbelievable urge to mutilate myself bit by bit, especially my genitalia because i am repulsed by the idea of sexual reproduction. i don't like humans. i don't give a flying fuck how edgy that sounds because it's genuinely eating me up. i don't know if i want to die, free myself of this human ... |
Not really a suicidal post, but i definitely don't know where to go from here.
I will do it at some point, haven't really thought out when yet.
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without further ado the explanation as to why;
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I feel like everything, has come to the worst definitive outcome of my life.
And somehow i wished for it ... | self-harm | not really a suicidal post, but i definitely don't know where to go from here. i will do it at some point, haven't really thought out when yet. without further ado the explanation as to why; i feel like everything, has come to the worst definitive outcome of my life. and somehow i wished for it to happen at one point b... |
This feeling of indifference towards everything in life is growing bigger and becoming more justifiable each day and I just don’t want to do this anymore.
I tried to end it all 3 years ago but it backfired and got me into loads of troubles with my family.. If only it worked.. I wish I had the courage to find a way to ... | self-harm | this feeling of indifference towards everything in life is growing bigger and becoming more justifiable each day and i just don't want to do this anymore. i tried to end it all 3 years ago but it backfired and got me into loads of troubles with my family.. if only it worked.. i wish i had the courage to find a way to e... |
My plan is to buy 2, connect them and then attach a tube to one. I'll put the tube into a plastic bag and tie the bag to my head.
I heard that co2 is the only gas that makes you panic that you can't breathe. Helium just knocks you out. And then you just breathe till you die of no air. | self-harm | my plan is to buy 2, connect them and then attach a tube to one. i'll put the tube into a plastic bag and tie the bag to my head. i heard that co2 is the only gas that makes you panic that you can't breathe. helium just knocks you out. and then you just breathe till you die of no air. |
It was already looking friendly when the world started going to hell but with the fact my mom and I are gonna be evicted from our house at the end of the month. We have no money or time to pack up, find a place and move into a new place (especially with trying to find a temporary place for our birds to stay until we ge... | self-harm | it was already looking friendly when the world started going to hell but with the fact my mom and i are gonna be evicted from our house at the end of the month. we have no money or time to pack up, find a place and move into a new place (especially with trying to find a temporary place for our birds to stay until we ge... |
I saw a starter pack about a "narcissistic mother" and now I feel the pressure to lose all of my weight, get plastic surgery and wear revealing clothes by 25 so I don't fit into the stereotype after 25.
I want to be the friendly 40 year old who doesn't care about looks and has tons of beautiful pictures of their youth... | self-harm | i saw a starter pack about a "narcissistic mother" and now i feel the pressure to lose all of my weight, get plastic surgery and wear revealing clothes by 25 so i don't fit into the stereotype after 25. i want to be the friendly 40 year old who doesn't care about looks and has tons of beautiful pictures of their youth ... |
Currently sitting outside on my balcony, in one of the Chairs.
Probably about a 15 foot drop onto my patio, if I climb up onto one of the railings. Considering taking a head dive off right now.
I was talking with my therapist yesterday about how I’ve been feeling. He wants me to go back to the hospital but I hate ... | self-harm | currently sitting outside on my balcony, in one of the chairs. probably about a 15 foot drop onto my patio, if i climb up onto one of the railings. considering taking a head dive off right now. i was talking with my therapist yesterday about how i've been feeling. he wants me to go back to the hospital but i hate going... |
My wife of thirteen years kicked me out and whats a divorce. I lost everything and am now living in trash room across town. I can inly see our children when she allows me to. She told me I disgust her. I have dealt with depression for years and have been trying everything to change but she wont try. I have dreams/ nigh... | self-harm | my wife of thirteen years kicked me out and whats a divorce. i lost everything and am now living in trash room across town. i can inly see our children when she allows me to. she told me i disgust her. i have dealt with depression for years and have been trying everything to change but she wont try. i have dreams/ nigh... |
My whole life I think has been tracking toward suicide. It’s like there’s never been any escape. People told me it was going to get better. I didn’t believe them. But I always loved the scientific method - prove yourself right by trying and not being able to yourself wrong.
I had nothing to lose, I took big ris... | self-harm | my whole life i think has been tracking toward suicide. it's like there's never been any escape. people told me it was going to get better. i didn't believe them. but i always loved the scientific method - prove yourself right by trying and not being able to yourself wrong. i had nothing to lose, i took big risks and f... |
Cold and dead. | self-harm | cold and dead. |
I want to start a petition so I can be granted assisted suicide. I live in New South Wales Australia where it is not legal, however it is legal in Victoria. But you have to have lived there for 12 months and I don't have 12 more months in me, and it also has to be for a terminal illness. Anyone reckon a petition is a g... | self-harm | i want to start a petition so i can be granted assisted suicide. i live in new south wales australia where it is not legal, however it is legal in victoria. but you have to have lived there for 12 months and i don't have 12 more months in me, and it also has to be for a terminal illness. anyone reckon a petition is a g... |
Im sick and tired of everything.I am suffering everyday and today i just woke up and started crying.Im in a huge mess and i dont know how to get out and i want to end everything tonight.
Im sorry i wish i was stronger really .Im in a situation without escape.If anyone wants to talk i will stay here for about an hour. | self-harm | im sick and tired of everything.i am suffering everyday and today i just woke up and started crying.im in a huge mess and i dont know how to get out and i want to end everything tonight. im sorry i wish i was stronger really .im in a situation without escape.if anyone wants to talk i will stay here for about an hour. |
I feel this huge weight on my body that makes me unable to do activities and hobbies. I can’t be bothered to do anything. All I do is lay in bed. | self-harm | i feel this huge weight on my body that makes me unable to do activities and hobbies. i can't be bothered to do anything. all i do is lay in bed. |
I'm not trying to get anyone's attention. I'm basically talking to myself at this point. But maybe I want more friends as I'll be dead in a month... That's selfish huh? I shouldnr ask anyone to attach to me when I'll be dead soon.
Why am I even bothering to write this?? Maybe I feel less lonely when I do so.. I'm sor... | self-harm | i'm not trying to get anyone's attention. i'm basically talking to myself at this point. but maybe i want more friends as i'll be dead in a month.. that's selfish huh? i shouldnr ask anyone to attach to me when i'll be dead soon. why am i even bothering to write this?? maybe i feel less lonely when i do so.. i'm sorry.... |
As the tittle said, I tried to kill myself yesterday. I took a handful of all the pills I had in my room, and took them all.
I was woken up by my parents later that evening, and rushed to A&E; and now I’m here, unsure what to do.
I regret it completely- seeing the effect it had in the people around me, I am lost fo... | self-harm | as the tittle said, i tried to kill myself yesterday. i took a handful of all the pills i had in my room, and took them all. i was woken up by my parents later that evening, and rushed to a&e; and now i'm here, unsure what to do. i regret it completely- seeing the effect it had in the people around me, i am lost for wo... |
I'm 24, moved to nyc (my favorite place in the world) in the best neighborhood and have the most fascinating roommate. I'm healthy, somewhat intelligent, have a sought after degree, make a decent salary, and basically have the foundation and means necessary to have a great life and work towards an incredible life.
Onl... | self-harm | i'm 24, moved to nyc (my favorite place in the world) in the best neighborhood and have the most fascinating roommate. i'm healthy, somewhat intelligent, have a sought after degree, make a decent salary, and basically have the foundation and means necessary to have a great life and work towards an incredible life. only... |
What's left to say? Just fucking kill me. | self-harm | what's left to say? just fucking kill me. |
There is no motivation to do anything productive when I feel like I’m just going to end it all and then I get more depressed when I am behind in class. | self-harm | there is no motivation to do anything productive when i feel like i'm just going to end it all and then i get more depressed when i am behind in class. |
I wish I found someone to be my partner to die. But, next month is closing near. I’m from the US and hope to find one. It’s not that great to do it alone, but I’m here alone. I wish I do, but if next month comes and no one comes along, I will end it alone. | self-harm | i wish i found someone to be my partner to die. but, next month is closing near. i'm from the us and hope to find one. it's not that great to do it alone, but i'm here alone. i wish i do, but if next month comes and no one comes along, i will end it alone. |
A part of me often hopes that I'll get some incurable illness or be involved in some accident where I'll die quickly. Then I'd be able to finally escape this pain and not have to feel guilty about deliberately killing myself. I know that if I killed myself it would devastate my mother and sister; if I died through no c... | self-harm | a part of me often hopes that i'll get some incurable illness or be involved in some accident where i'll die quickly. then i'd be able to finally escape this pain and not have to feel guilty about deliberately killing myself. i know that if i killed myself it would devastate my mother and sister; if i died through no c... |
dude I can't and I know I'll be ranting I'm so tired so ABSOLUTELY tired of everything that's going on.
I have to get into a fucking college right? well guess what I am getting into ABSOLUTELY nothing , and even if I get into something I'll be learning something I don't care for.
Ambitions , right? I had one. I wan... | self-harm | dude i can't and i know i'll be ranting i'm so tired so absolutely tired of everything that's going on. i have to get into a fucking college right? well guess what i am getting into absolutely nothing , and even if i get into something i'll be learning something i don't care for. ambitions , right? i had one. i wanted ... |
Why don't I just kill myself? I get ignored anyway so it won't be am issue. Nobody cares about me now so who will care when I'm dead. Exactly, no one. | self-harm | why don't i just kill myself? i get ignored anyway so it won't be am issue. nobody cares about me now so who will care when i'm dead. exactly, no one. |
Thinking of eating a 1oz 12 gauge slug.
28k in debt.
No job due to Covid-19. Also quit a career job 7 year years ago to be a full time care giver for my parents who died in 2017/2019 from COPD and Throat cancer.
No unemployment, health/dental insurance.
No savings.
28K in student loan debt... I have paid 40K. Sti... | self-harm | thinking of eating a 1oz 12 gauge slug. 28k in debt. no job due to covid-19. also quit a career job 7 year years ago to be a full time care giver for my parents who died in 2017/2019 from copd and throat cancer. no unemployment, health/dental insurance. no savings. 28k in student loan debt.. i have paid 40k. still only... |
Does anyone else just feel like your life is slowly crumbling ? Like one day you’re on top of the world and can do anything, but the next you’re at rock bottom and don’t even want to turn on the lights. Well that’s exactly how I feel, so much pain inside that it feels like darkness is just enclosing on me. Like if I we... | self-harm | does anyone else just feel like your life is slowly crumbling ? like one day you're on top of the world and can do anything, but the next you're at rock bottom and don't even want to turn on the lights. well that's exactly how i feel, so much pain inside that it feels like darkness is just enclosing on me. like if i we... |
I am 17, I've been diagnosed with OCD, MDD, and SAD.
I am fucking tired, no one gives a fuck about what I am going thru, especially my dad, I've seen 2 psychiatrist, one I stopped seeing for some reasons, and the 2nd one just misdiagnosed me at first then give me antipsychotics that made my symptoms and gave me bad si... | self-harm | i am 17, i've been diagnosed with ocd, mdd, and sad. i am fucking tired, no one gives a fuck about what i am going thru, especially my dad, i've seen 2 psychiatrist, one i stopped seeing for some reasons, and the 2nd one just misdiagnosed me at first then give me antipsychotics that made my symptoms and gave me bad sid... |
I just tried to buy razors with the intent of slitting my wrists some time this month, forgetting that you have to have be 18+ to do so. I have non at home that would be even remotely sharp enough. So now I'm sitting outside the store feeling like an idiot having failed an attempt before even attempting. If I can't eve... | self-harm | i just tried to buy razors with the intent of slitting my wrists some time this month, forgetting that you have to have be 18+ to do so. i have non at home that would be even remotely sharp enough. so now i'm sitting outside the store feeling like an idiot having failed an attempt before even attempting. if i can't eve... |
24 male. I'm not sure what I'm feeling I've never gotten help and only recently opened up to a friend about how I have been feeling and what I have been thinking the past 5 or so years.
I've struggled the past couple of years working towards a trade I dont really want, dealing with the fact I have 0 relationship experi... | self-harm | 24 male. i'm not sure what i'm feeling i've never gotten help and only recently opened up to a friend about how i have been feeling and what i have been thinking the past 5 or so years. i've struggled the past couple of years working towards a trade i dont really want, dealing with the fact i have 0 relationship experi... |
And take advantage of me and gave me PTSD
I’m suicidal because of them
Fuck my life | self-harm | and take advantage of me and gave me ptsd i'm suicidal because of them fuck my life |
I will kill myself tonight. I thought I could wait but I cant.
This loneliness is eating me up
I cannot get friends, I cannot get love, I won't get better
I should end my life while I still can
Goodbye | self-harm | i will kill myself tonight. i thought i could wait but i cant. this loneliness is eating me up i cannot get friends, i cannot get love, i won't get better i should end my life while i still can goodbye |
I'm technically still enrolled as a uni student, but i haven't gone to uni nor did my final research for the last 6 months. Rn i'm just at home doing anything i can to 'have fun' at home. I was born a loner anyway so i don't get even more depressed by staying at home and becoming anti-social. (I have been ignoring my f... | self-harm | i'm technically still enrolled as a uni student, but i haven't gone to uni nor did my final research for the last 6 months. rn i'm just at home doing anything i can to 'have fun' at home. i was born a loner anyway so i don't get even more depressed by staying at home and becoming anti-social. (i have been ignoring my f... |
I have been feeling bad, seeing how the persons who I considered my friends do not care about me, do not text me, just look for me when they need something from me, that is breaking me out. Nobody has talked to me for 4 days, and it may seem like a few time, but is an eternity. Actually, I wanted to talk with anybody, ... | self-harm | i have been feeling bad, seeing how the persons who i considered my friends do not care about me, do not text me, just look for me when they need something from me, that is breaking me out. nobody has talked to me for 4 days, and it may seem like a few time, but is an eternity. actually, i wanted to talk with anybody, ... |
And no, none of you count. No offense but, you know what I mean.
But the loneliness is on both sides of the issue, I can't keep burdening people with this shit every damn day. They don't feel the weight every day. They think they hear me once and we should be good, that's how it works in their brain so it must work th... | self-harm | and no, none of you count. no offense but, you know what i mean. but the loneliness is on both sides of the issue, i can't keep burdening people with this shit every damn day. they don't feel the weight every day. they think they hear me once and we should be good, that's how it works in their brain so it must work the... |
I can’t stop crying. I dread this time of night everyday because it’s when I feel the worst and get all the horrible thoughts :( | self-harm | i can't stop crying. i dread this time of night everyday because it's when i feel the worst and get all the horrible thoughts :( |
For the past few days I’ve been visualizing my death and what happens after and somehow it gives me a sense of peace and happiness. Visualizing everyone going on with their life happy | self-harm | for the past few days i've been visualizing my death and what happens after and somehow it gives me a sense of peace and happiness. visualizing everyone going on with their life happy |
I've pretty much all my friends, I'm scared that my mum will kick me out of the house because I am bi and she constantly switches her mood so I don't know what to think of her anymore and I just wish I could change my race because of racist bullies I hope they go kill themselves. Most of the time I will just talk to my... | self-harm | i've pretty much all my friends, i'm scared that my mum will kick me out of the house because i am bi and she constantly switches her mood so i don't know what to think of her anymore and i just wish i could change my race because of racist bullies i hope they go kill themselves. most of the time i will just talk to my... |
It's like I drowning and barely can keep my head above the water, like I am stuck in molasses.
Nothing is going to dramatically improve, I am just so tired.
I don't want to die but I can't do it anymore. | self-harm | it's like i drowning and barely can keep my head above the water, like i am stuck in molasses. nothing is going to dramatically improve, i am just so tired. i don't want to die but i can't do it anymore. |
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